HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BENK, WES AND BLAKE!!! LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH..<3
So this week was...fun. I guess. I mean with the excitement of Valentines, the anniversary and certain special birhtdays...it's been the best week of my year so far. But slowly, as it begins to end...the complication comes in. Yet, before the problems, I want to share the highlights of my fantastic week.
Monday morning felt just fine. After the band auditions during the previous saturday, I found myself waking up at the RIGHT side of the bed. Shocking. I was actually happy...and giddy that day and I couldn't explain why. Maybe it was because I finally saw "JL" (see previous blog) again or just because. Anyway, it was a nice start. Even my friends noticed how happy I was. Imagine if I was really in love at hindi lang kinikilig. Tuesday was good. That's all. HAHA. I was happy..because the Science Long Test was postponed. Woohoo!! We had another class lunch. A very controversial one, might I add. God. We played truth or dare and I can't believe what I admitted!! Arg. That's why the next lunch I didn't go anymore. Embarrasing and...surprising. Because I said something I haven't even admitted to myself yet. So it was weird. Oh, and I finally finished watching Full House. Young-Jae...Young Jae...<3 :)) Wednesday was even better. At first I hated Valentines day because of my lack of it. But then, it was fun. I can't explain why, but it was. During the past years, I've never really celebrated it much but this year it was kind of a big deal. Also...I had some people to greet. Sad thing is, the only person who didn't reply back was the person I was terribly wishing for to text. :( oh well. We exchanged gifts (Karen and I) and, with a blink of the eye...it was all over. Thursday was alright. It was just ok. I was anxious, of course, because it was the day of the Science LT. Pft. That's actually the reason why I was acting like a drunk, obnoxious bitch during lunch. To the people I snapped at, I'm terribly sorry...:) I was just caught in such a bad mood because of the test. I really promise to myself (although its a little too late) that the next time, I'LL READ THE INSTRUCTIONS. :l The afternoon was fun. I gave a hand to my mom and helped her with her tutor and the two kids entertained me right before I went through the torture part of my day. The Social Studies LT was on friday and I had to study and read six long chapters about laws and the american imperialism. Yes, I suffered. Every after a chapter, though, I took a short break. Ok, I took about fifteen minutes, so what? I deserved it. You're not going to like the next thing I'm going to say though. Friday was the BEST. The Social LT was postponed. Yep, all my hard work and sacrifice was poofed out just like that. Anyway, it was a burden off my shoulders, as well, since if we did have it on the day, I would've most likely scored low. Anyway, yes Friday was the best of all. First of all, because it was gimmick day. Yay. Finally, an excuse to go out and have fun with friends. Our schedure was a little tight, though, because of Bea's meeting and the Vintage + other bands auditions. But it was great anyway. Could've been better if Karen was there to join us though. Oh well. She has to deal with her problems first. (I'll just be here for you dearest.) We arrived at the mall at about 2ish and then proceeded to eat lunch at Cibo. We played at Timezone for a while and then went around to go shopping for Eka and Kevin’s gifts. Also, we browsed through different stores. I was so frantic about what to give to Kevin cause really, I didn’t know what he’d appreciate. In the end, I settled with flip-flops from Bench (he has really large feet) and gel from Bench as well. For Eka? Well, we didn’t find anything she wanted or anything in the budget. Anyway, I’ll give her my gift on Monday. After that, we ate a Dairy Queen, took some pictures. Unfortunately, we didn’t have much more time to go around after that. Bum. So Bea and I went on our way to the Jamsyt, where we would be watching Vintage and the other bands perform their auditions. It was fun. GO VINTAGE!! :)) Bea was in a strange mood, though, because her mom, who was ready to fetch her, was sort of pissed. So we didn’t get to spend so much time there. Oh, btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY IAN KEVIN ANGELES!!! Hope you liked my gift. :D Happy birthday to Angelica Florendo as well. Gosh, so many happenings on the sixteenth. Too bad we didn’t get to see Blake and Wes. Tsk. Guess it wasn’t meant to be. If it’s God’s plan for us to meet again, it’ll happen. Meanwhile, I’m starting to wish my hope for a love life didn’t come true. I give up, ngayon pa lang. J All in all, the week was fantastic. If given a chance to repeat everything all over, I swear I would without a second thought.
One Tree Hill’s starting. Oh yeah. I can’t wait to see the rest of the 4th season. And, yesterday I saw some new updates in the book section. (I know, I know, nerdy) There's a new Shopaholic and the last of the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants!!!!! Oh my gosh. I can't wait to get my hands on those! *squeals*
And now onto the more difficult part of my blog. Remember the two guys I mentioned the other day? Yeah, the second one is bothering me. I mean, I know I know practically nothing about him and we aren’t really that close but I really am starting to think I like him. I shared my thoughts with Eka last night—you were a great help by the way, dear—and before falling asleep I did realize she was right. I’m scared. Of rejection and for hoping for nothing. Call me a coward for this, but I don’t care. I hate it when I get my hopes up only to see them crumbling down. For this guy, I know it’s going to be impossible because a) he’s 100% taken and b) he shows no interest. But even knowing this, I still can’t get him out of my mind…or even stop caring so much. Why? The more I deny it, the more it gets worse but then if I acknowledge the feeling, yikes. I might end up…well…falling. It’s not impossible for that to happen, because I fall in love so easily. I can still remember…never mind. I’m so confused. How to take this feeling away? Please help me, anyone out there. Another weird thing is, there’s this new guy who’s hinting that he likes me. He’s good looking, he’s funny, he’s sweet, he’s practically the same as the first guy and yet, I show no interest. Maybe I like the chase? Come to think of it, I’ve never fallen for a guy who is on the offensive. I’ve always been crushing on dudes who I have to coax and pry and it was fun. With the first guy though, I’m really scared to do it. Why can’t I just like the guys who like me? It’s just life, I guess. My head is really spinning right now, and I’m trying to stop myself from texting him. It’s all Yannah’s fault. Why did she have to give me his number? Why’d she have to introduce him to me? Why is he so damn handsome? Why is he impeccably talented? Why is he so nice? Why is he bothering me?! Ugh. I hate being like this. Screw it. I love being single. The next time I’m lonely because I have no one to love and who loves me…I’m never going to whine and ask for someone to come in my life. No way. AHHHHH. I’m going crazy…I’m losing my sanity…and it’s all because of him. I hate you, but I don’t. I want to get to know you, but I don’t. I want to give up…yet I can’t and I won’t. Can someone please tell me what’s happening?
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
Ciao.
Bussi.
