Whoever wrote that is right, I guess. I may not have fully understood it’s meaning during the very moment I heard the saying, but then as I ventured deeper into its context, I saw what was hidden. In life, it’s inevitable to get hurt. Without pain, you will never know what it feels to be painless. Without sadness, you will never find out the true meaning of joy. Without hate or indifference, you can never get to know the feeling of love.

So, I’ve been ranting about guys for the past few blogs. Sorry to say that today won’t be any different. Hopefully, though, I’ll be able to stop drowning in the world I so want to leave. Just yesterday, Eka and I were discussing how our lives are NOT to be decided by men. Who said they should be the center of our attention? What is their right to dictate to us what to do, how to feel and how to act? Only recently have I felt the feminist side of me awaken. For more than a month in the past, I was longing for excitement, thinking that this would come if I found someone to share my heart with. Oh, how wrong am I? I guess I was just focusing on the wrong things. This can go the other way around too, if you know what I mean.

“I care for him and that's why I hate to know that I'm hurting him somehow. I've felt the pain, that's why I don't to inflict it upon others. Because, really, when you know someone's hurting because of you, you get hurt too. :) You know I'm not the kind of person who just lets this happen. I've got to do something to end this madness. I'll go back to my boy-less life anytime, please. If only I could find my way back there.”

This is derived from the e-mail I wrote sometime in the past. Yes, I do hate it when that situation occurs. Now, I’ve got a pretty good hunch of it happening, not because someone told me about it, but because when it comes to this matter, I’m sensitive.

There are three guys I mention previously. I’m going to uncode half of them. The first is Julian Lazaro. The second shall remain unnamed and the third was christened Paul. I’m stating this just so there’s no confusion. So now there’s this new dude. I like him, as a person and as a friend. Actually, I enjoy his company, everytime we’re together. He doesn’t say much, but I like the fact that when I’m around him, I feel a sense of serenity and calmness. I like the fact that he remembers me and isn’t a snob. I like the fact that he likes me too. What I don’t want is that there’s something ripping our friendship apart. I don’t know what it is exactly, if I did, I would’ve done something about it a long time ago. Anyway, I can’t believe I’m going to admit this but I miss him. Or, rather, I miss hearing from him. It’s just all kinda weird for me. I am, though, going to say a few things to this guy (who hopefully gets to read this one day. I know there was a time he got into my blogs, I just hope he’s here now, to see the one dedicated to him). I’m sorry. For everything. I’m not sorry for knowing you but, instead, I’m sorry if ever I hurt you. I’m sorry IF you feel like something’s eating your heart up. Let me share a piece of advice that was once passed on to me. If you can’t get the person you love, no matter how hard you try, I promise you, there will always be someone else. This applied to me and maybe, just maybe, it will for you too. I love you, my friend. And I miss you. Hi.Ü

So now I know that a few of you are probably wondering when the drama will end. Well, it ends tonight. J Know why? Because I’m going to end it.

This week’s been alright, I guess. I’ve been reading my previous blogs (I just realize how unamusingly long they were and was amazed that some people actually read it) and, let me tell you something, it’s extremely fun. I mean, like, I can’t believe those things happened and that I had the patience (and enough blubbery-attitude) to write it. Anyway, I’m just so…happy. Because now, I feel part of me has returned. Only a few more pieces to go.

So what to write? Hmm…it’s One Tree Hill night tonight. What joy. I watched the eighth episode yesterday and it was alright. Oh, another thing I watched was McFly’s new Transylvannia video. Super funny!!! I love them more, especially Dougie and Danny. Gosh, they’re so hot. I also saw a few of their home videos. I swear, they’re the clowniest (is that even a word?) band members I know. How I wish I could get to know them. What more be “involved” with them. *snickers* And I saw Nickelback’s Far Away video just a while ago. I can only say one word: Aw. (Technically, though, that’s not even a word)

Remember how I said this year doesn’t feel new? I guess it was my mistake saying that too early. Because only now have I realized the true potential 2007 brings. I’m having so much fun now…I’m wondering what the next few chapters of my life would be. Things with my class have improved extremely. Now I can really say we’re close. And now, I could really wish for us to be together for the whole high school experience. I won’t mind, because I’ve learned to treasure them. I sincerely hope the few people in the class who are making true harmony hard to achive would back down, though, and change for the better. Because we all care for you to just be the better person that you are.

What else…oh yeah. VOTE ANNA BEATRIX DELA TORRE FOR PINK BATCH REPRESENTATIVE. You will never regret it, I swear. Right now, if you’re a little annoyed with her antics, it’s alright. Because in the end, you’ll learn to love her, just like I did. So make the right choice and vote the right candidate. Again, BEA DELA TORRE FOR PINK BATCH REP!!!

Anyway, Ima go now. I’ll end this blog with a few contrasting words in relation to my header.

There are two tragedies in life. The first is to lose you r hearts desire and the other is to gain it. Yes, they are tragedies, but without taking the risk, you’ll never experience the life in these challenges. Just be strong and allow nothing to break you. Not even heartaches. Depend greatly on yourself, because no one can help you get up when you fall except the person who fell in the first place. It’s your choice, all you have to do is take the right one. It’s hard to accept this at the beginning, but then in the end, you’ll know and realize I’m right in a sense. Tragedies are disasters. Misfortunes. Calamities. But the lessons you’ll learn from them are the same lessons that are going to bring you up and even personally introduce you to true and eternal happiness.

Don’t fret.

Ciao.

Bussi.

PS: If you wanna watch the new Mcfly video, just click this link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X-qm9TDZ4t8